I am fine, I act fine. I live fine. In fact , fine is me! I put my issues in a box, and stack it far away. I compartmentalize my life in order to survive. After all, a lie told to self over and over again starts become reality. Once in a while I pull out the box and go to familiar places but the trick is not to stay to long. EVER. Well, today I lingered over a thought and my compartments all disappeared. I tried to catch the spreading mess but my hands could only reach so far. It was more aggressive than I had imagined. It forced its way out, enjoying the new found freedom and suffocating me with every inch gained. I knew this day would come but I don’t remember ever thinking it would be this way. I’d have thought of the proverbial plan B because right now I’m running butt naked in the rain to keep sane.
***If light is the only thing that can dispel darkness why is the light only just flickering? What happened to bright searing beams?
Friday, July 24, 2009
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
today i saw a man for a man.
Calloused hands,
rough hewn features
broody eyes, a sunburn.
He said he found it strange
that the manner in which i talked
reminded him of her
life had once been kinder to him
there was a twinkle in his eye
as he spoke of long lost dreams
a smile skirted across his lips
and in an instant it was gone
his face fell back into
it's a calm resigned state.
He said the only thing worse
than tragedy, was owning it
and refusing to let it go.
Today I saw a man for a man,
trying not to be the bitter kind.
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