Deception

Darkness masquerades as a friend, 

not just  mere inspiration 

for loosely morbid poetry

it seems as if it knows me best

seeing all 

neither aiding nor standing in the way

surrounding me in the depths of the war over my soul, 

comforting me when i fail ,

reluctantly acknowledging my victory 

should i emerge a temporary master

 of self and selfishness, 

cautioning and enabling 

a short lived celebration.  

eventually

 the struggle between good and evil ensues...

the outcome is never certain,

 and  darkness, 

the kind  whose presence is most felt at 3:00am

nearly fools me into believing it is a friend.

giving free reign to thought

my writing is sporadic at best. and to those to whom this makes any difference in their lives, i apologize. life gets hectic. this is only a conduit of  release, and while  opportunities to indulge  may often present themselves,sometimes it's easier to stay out of my own mind than to face the reality of what i'll find...or fail to find.  this is  what's in here right now....
1. cant remember what it feels like to keep things simple. what a tangled web I've weaved
2. it's kinda hard to dislike contradiction when it's the one word that most accurately defines you
3. i need to stop caring about what other people think about xyz....it's a stifling way to live
4. the Good Book says we are "like a vapor in the wind".  very humbling if you think about it
5. nostalgia : the thing that makes you think you miss the very things you may have once greatly disliked (currently it's being someone else's responsibility)
6. All the best people are entirely bonkers, Mad hatter was right
7. we change our shape in order to keep from snapping in half -see even the trees give lessons on life 
8. i cant wait to ask my maker why the gene for long,silky black hair skipped me...and almost everyone before me
9. i'm really hoping your were not expecting 10 moderately interesting thoughts...  my excuse is that 9 is the new 10 ( if only for today)