I am fine, I act fine. I live fine. In fact , fine is me! I put my issues in a box, and stack it far away. I compartmentalize my life in order to survive. After all, a lie told to self over and over again starts become reality. Once in a while I pull out the box and go to familiar places but the trick is not to stay to long. EVER. Well, today I lingered over a thought and my compartments all disappeared. I tried to catch the spreading mess but my hands could only reach so far. It was more aggressive than I had imagined. It forced its way out, enjoying the new found freedom and suffocating me with every inch gained. I knew this day would come but I don’t remember ever thinking it would be this way. I’d have thought of the proverbial plan B because right now I’m running butt naked in the rain to keep sane.
***If light is the only thing that can dispel darkness why is the light only just flickering? What happened to bright searing beams?
You know, if you claw your way towards the light, it gets brighter.
ReplyDelete*Call me.
"..running butt naked in the rain.."....call me too
ReplyDelete@ princess: an optimist? i definitely will call you.
ReplyDelete@sleek-okimanyi:-)
it was not funny when i wrote it but after that suggestion i'm amused.
running butt naked in the rain always used to be fun :-)
ReplyDeleteSo thats why everyone has been texting me about your great body?! You've been running around naked! Way to go!!! LOL
ReplyDeletep.s-I LOVE YOU even though u r crazy!
On a more serious note-keep breathing.